Sharing – Supporting One Another When Chronic Illness Strikes by Jenny of Tripping Through Treacle.

*I urge everyone who either has a chronic illness or those who have a loved one with chronic illness’. It’s directed, somewhat, towards married couples, but the information would be wonderful for anyone in a close relationship with someone chronically ill.*

Approximately 6 years ago I was an active parent to two young children, going out to work and enjoying ‘date nights’ with my husband and get-togethers with friends.  I was a runner, who loved to… View Full Post

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Poem – Forget

The time is so early, yet only darkness has a hold on the Sky.

The shadows have moved on. Night has taken its place on the land.

The frenzied thoughts in my mind seeming to have passed on with the shadows.

What’s left is as dark and still as the air outside.

Not Peace, but a horrifying stillness.

The stillness of Death, the Death of emotions.

The massive weight of them that pressed into my heart, now, not only missing but gone.

The flame of the passionate heart put out by the overwhelming cold.

A now welcome place as the Fire had started to burn my skin.

That which had kept me safe and warm had turned into a place of explosion and pain.

The cold helps the pain, numbs it along with everything else.

The memory of the Sun no longer present in my mind.

When the darkness consumes your heart, what else can matter?

There being no purpose to fight any longer.

Now, just to lay down in the cold and dark and forget.

– Kahlan222 : January, 5th 2018


I know. I’m actually still here. I hope you didn’t think I’d abandoned my blog! 😱 😉

The truth, I think, was fear. There’s a another edge to the sword that is; sharing yourself through writing. It’s the part where, by writing, it becomes real. Real in a way it cannot gain in any other setting.

I need to overcome that fear. So much has happened, so much I wanted to share, but waited.

Maybe if I waited til things got a little better, then it would be okay.

Maybe if I have a plan, then it’ll be okay.

I know now that sharing is the whole point. Making it real is important. Cause it is real.

So I’m going to try to share again. Share my thoughts, poems, art and memories.

Share myself.

~ Kahlan222

Sharing – Walking Through the Day with a Pain Warrior by Suzanne over at Tears of Truth

*This post is a heartbreakingly beautiful post about what a day is like in the life of someone dealing with chronic pain.

Below is a sample…please click the link at the bottom for the complete post.


This is not just a story about me, but a story that many pain warriors live through on a daily basis. I know because I talk to many of them often. Much of this is “our story”. …..I awaken each day; the first thing that I do is cry inside of my head. My body lay still too long. Four hours is too long! I feel pain and don’t want to get up, or move because I know it will hurt. I’m so tired of the pain. I lay there and contemplate rising to my feet. I hear my husband call my name. He always says “Hello my Love, Good Morning! Time to rise and shine!” He tells our Kitty, Luna, to come and get me. She always listens to him and she enters our bedroom and meows for me to get on my feet. Still lying there, I think about the day ahead and wonder if it will be a busy day? Will it be one in which I have to do a few things? Or will it be a day that I can be a bit quiet?

Click here for the rest of the post…

Pain Free – Truth or Myth

I’ve been asked quite a few times lately by both family, friends and medical personal…”but, you’re not expecting to be pain free?”. 

It’s happened often enough that I’ve found my mind drifting back to that question. If pain is relative then wouldn’t the idea of being pain free be relative too?

Every time I’m asked I respond the same….”Of course not!”, because it’s clear in their tone that if I were to say yes in any way it would mean I was a hopeless case. 

But, I have to admit that there is a part of me that wants that. Do I expect it….not exactly. Mostly because I have no idea where my story is going. So, you manage expectations….do I expect to be pain free? In my mind…no, never, as I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel. But, do I want to be pain free? Of course! 

Since no one can be in my body and give me a second opinion on my pain level, how am I supposed to know what is “enough” pain to be in.

Have you experienced this or something like it? 

What were/are your thoughts? 

I’d really appreciate some feedback from all of you as this is a subject that my brain just keeps batting around. I’ve got too many thoughts in there to begin with and I can’t even juggle 🤹‍♀️.

P.S. I am in the process of writing a blog series on my experience to date with Medical Marijuana (Cannabis). There will be a Q&A at the end of the series, so save up your questions or feel free to send them to me now.

Bad Luck Life

There have been some dark times lately…Okay, some very dark times lately. 

I keep thinking, why does it seem like there are people who nothing goes right or easy for? Things never arrive on time for us. They never come when we need them. Our cars get a flat tire while we are lost and have no idea how to get home. Our packages get run over by a car and come to us with stuff missing and all jacked up. 

When our rides didn’t come as kids we’d have to walk home., the rain. Our family members end up in the hospital more than anyone else. We end up in the hospital more than anyone else. We’re the ones that get the cold only one other person in the office has and it turns into strep. We get the illnesses that no one else can see…the ones that create stigma to overcome not just pain.

It’s like “bad luck” got tattooed on our foreheads when were born.

Sorry for the depressing post. But, I’m trying to actually post things…especially when I write them somewhere else and think to myself “this would make a good blog post”. 

Thank you everyone for all the love and support. It means the world to me. 


Still Here – Still Fighting

Hello all you wonderful loyal followers!

I know I’ve been missing for a very long time. I’ve found myself in darkness for a while now. I’ve wanted to post so many times, but every time I started a post I just stares at that blinking line…daring me to write something….and my mind would go blank. 

I knew I didn’t want to write post after post of the same thing over and over…so…I just didn’t post anything.

I do have some posts planned that I think I should be able to write no problem. You can also look for more art and poetry. 

But, I am here and this blog has helped me in ways I’m not willing to give up on. So I’m staying here. I can’t say for certain when you’ll see my next post. But I plan on making it as soon as possible.

~ Kahlan

Send Some Love and Support…

My very good friend and fellow blogger Tracy over at Me, My Spoons & I is having a really hard time right now…click the picture below to read about it in her own words…

I’m asking the blogging community to head on over to her blog and give her some love and suppport! After all, that’s what this amazing community is all about! I’m certain that any of you who read her post will find some part of it you can connect to.

So, if you can, take a moment and help someone in a real and tangible way. After all, we don’t get a chance to that every day.

Thank you to everyone who takes the time to read and respond!! You’re all the best! 


A very good friend of mine and fellow chronic illness blogger, Tracy aka SpoonieMom of Me, My Spoons & I, has just recently opened an Etsy shop!

Called The Spoonique Boutique; she is offering a selection of handmade bath and beauty products, such as bath bombs, body lotions, lip balm, scented candles and more, as well as some really beautiful “spoonie” jewelry. 

Now is the perfect time to order gifts for the Holidays! And you will be supporting a fellow chronic illness sufferer.  

She is in the process of updating and expanding her product line so right now her entire shop is on sale! See the post below for details…

*Click the above logo to be taken directly to her Etsy Shop. 

Originally Posted on Me, My Spoons & I

Etsy Sale!

Most of you probably already know this, but last month I started my Etsy shop in an effort to help contribute financially in my home after reaching the point of being too unwell to work (and somehow too “healthy” to qualify for disability). 

Today I’m just spreading the word that I’m currently hosting a sale at my shop in an effort to clear out my current inventory and make room for more. So if you’re interested in helping a quasi disabled spoonie out (lol) just stop on by and look around. Spread the word if you feel up to it. 

The terms of the sale are simple. All currently in stock items can be purchased for 50% off with a minimum purchase of $30 or more. Simply use the coupon code SPOONIE50 at checkout! Scented lip balm can be added onto your order for $1 to receive 2 random lip balms from my current selection. And as a way to say thank you, if you place an order you’ll also receive another discount toward your next purchase from the shop! 

*Please note that not all fragrances are in stock. If you select a fragrance and its stock runs out before your order is processed, I will contact you regarding substitutions. Thank you! 😊💕

To Be Thankful….

For all of you out there, no matter where you find yourself or with whom you are surrounded this day, may you find yourself filled will love and gratitude and some dam good food.

Much Love,

    ~ Kahlan