I lay here and I can think of the things I need to do….want to do. Things that might help my pain and my mood…but I just can’t seem to care.
“If I were just stronger, I could snap out of it.”
“What is wrong with me that I can’t just get up?!”
I’ve been struggling with those thoughts..that if I could just overcome this complete lack of caring, I might actually be doing okay right now.
I can’t seem to find the balance between cutting myself some slack and still trying to fight.